Chris’ Neighborhood

Random quotes I love today :)

"There have been lots of ups & downs,
but ultimately, at the end of the day, that’s
what makes you who you are. we all know
how to laugh, we all know how to cry, & we
all know how to love back. we all know
heartbreak, but the world keeps moving,
& we keep moving along with it. &
Everything we experience helps us
realize how beautiful life really is.."

"life is about trusting our feelings and taking chances
losing and finding happiness, appreciating the memories
and learning from the past"

"This isn’t a perfect world…people get hurt.
you smile when you feel like crying.
you act like your okay when your falling apart.
but you gotta let go and move on…
Because there’s nothing else you can do."

Your great mistake is to act the drama
as if you were alone. As if life
were a progressive and cunning crime
with no witness to the tiny hidden
transgressions. To feel abandoned is to deny
the intimacy of your surroundings. Surely,
even you, at times, have felt the grand array;
the swelling presence, and the chorus, crowding
out your solo voice. You must note
the way the soap dish enables you,
or the window latch grants you freedom.
Alertness is the hidden discipline of familiarity.
The stairs are your mentor of things
to come, the doors have always been there
to frighten you and invite you,
and the tiny speaker in the phone
is your dream-ladder to divinity.

Put down the weight of your aloneness and ease into
the conversation. The kettle is singing
even as it pours you a drink, the cooking pots
have left their arrogant aloofness and
seen the good in you at last. All the birds
and creatures of the world are unutterably
themselves. Everything is waiting for you.

There was a time In my life when There was no place
I'd rather be, Than with you,I  loved you desperately,
On my mind all the time,I gave you every kind
of love I could give,You broke my heart
I thought I'd never live.Every tear that I cried
It made me stronger(made me stronger)
An' I don't want No-one by my side.
I got myself a single life-- it's bringing me joy,
Single life.

I'm living and now I've found I don't need you
Now I'm out on my own Single life feels so right!

I don’t know. I’ll be the bigger person, I just need to be strong enough. I am strong at other things in life, believe me. My broken heart will keep on reminding me that sometimes I will miss him and sometimes I wont, but thinking of him is just a never ending force. Sincere and honest truth, there is only one person who can fix it- the one who broke it. But, it's something that he can't/won't ever fix. Not sure if I'd let him try. I'm finding that I can stand on my own, it's shaky and scary and utterly perplexing, but I can do it. Just watch.

 I'm tired of me
 I'm tired of life.
 I'm tired of ....everything.
 I'm tired of the fact that no matter how i intend for a conversation to go..it ends with me in tears.
 I'm tired of the fact that I feel it necessary to apologize for my feelings.
 I'm tired of being alone.
I'm tired of effort with no results,
I'm tired of having to be adult,
I'm tired of keeping back-up insults,
I'm tired of having no one to consult,
I'm tired of regrets that keep creeping in,
I'm tired of wanting to re-begin,
I'm tired of guilt not wearing thin,
I'm tired of trying, and trying, and trying,
I'm tired of unfulfilled teenage dreams,
I'm tired of not feeling part of a team,
I'm tired of not being able to scream,
I'm tired of nursing low self-esteem,
I'm tired of people ignoring me,
I'm tired of eyes that don't wanna meet,
I'm tired of faking happiness

I am wistful and optimistic,

I wonder what's next;

I hear the sound of laughter

 and I see your smile.

I want faith and desire-

I am wistful and optimistic.

I pretend to be brave;

I feel the waves crashing about me.

I touch the pause button;

and I worry about the end results.

I cry over the lost me and the chances that were never taken.

I am wistful and optimistic

I understand that I can be me;

I say lets run and don't look back.

I dream of what's to come and what will never be again.

I try to be me,

 I hope for faith and desire-

I am wistful and optimistic

I've been around, just not posting as much. I've started working in a new craft arena (Scrapbooking and Stamping) and that has been taking much of my free time up. What else have I been up to: I did the NAMI walk again this year, and had a great turn out for my second year as team captain.  Hopefully next year we can add a few more walkers.

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